Why?

Each day seems to bring with it a chance to ask why. A chance to wonder why one person's life is so different from another's. A dear friend called me last week and was telling me that they are unable to have children without surgery. Some of my friends and family haven't been blessed with a spouse to share their life with. Several friends and family have financial or career struggles. And some of my friends and family are living with illness.

It is so easy to fall into the "why me" trap. I find I have to remind myself daily of the many blessings that surround me each day. How happy I have been and how many things I have in my life (like friends that will help us build a deck, friends that walk with me every day and drive me around, and families that constantly encourage me). I am convinced that because our struggles are so difficult, I often forget to be grateful for the wonderful people in my life. Thank you to everyone who has given of themselves in my life!

My Mom said something to me last night that will forever be one of the most precious statements anyone has ever made to me. She told me that she often wonders why the devil wants me out of the world so badly. As a baby, the doctors said I would never make it, but at the last minute, God pulled me through, same as this last year. It's comforting to think that God has protected me and has His hand on my life. I pray that each of you will experience His will in your life so that you can feel that same comfort and joy.

Well, I am happy to report that after having an episode of V-Tach (fluttering of my heart) last week, my medication has been adjusted and I am finally feeling better. It took about a week and a half to adjust to the change in medication (the heart meds make me so tired and light headed that I constantly feel like I am going to pass out or throw up) but now I feel stronger and my heart pump numbers are good. Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers. I have a doctor's appointment today at OSU but am not really anticipating anything too exciting. LOL