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In March 2009 I was diagnosed with cardiomyopathy - Heart Failure. Within two months, it progressed to end-stage. In August 2009 I had a Left Ventricular Assist Device (LVAD) implanted to help my heart pump blood. Then in December I was placed on the heart transplant list. On January 11, 2010 a heart became available for me and I was taken to the operating room. While on the table, the surgeons found that my own heart had began to heal. I didn't get that transplant and subsequently had my LVAD removed in September 2010. Today, I have a new appreciation for life and am learning to take each day one step at a time.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Loss is Hard

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: Ecclesiastes 3:1-3

From the first day I was diagnosed, we became acutely aware of how common it is that some people are having another ordinary day while we were having life-changing hardships laid on us. And some times it feels like our mourning and sadness will go on for an eternity; however, this verse (also a Beatles song that I like to sing) remind me that the difficulties only last for a season and that we can be assured a better day is coming.

Yesterday we lost another member of our support group. This makes several this year. And the news came on the toes of some great news for another of our members. As I was speaking with the family of the member with the good news, we couldn't help but discuss how discouraging the road seemed. It was then that I was reminded of Peter walking on the water. See, he stepped out of the boat on faith, which took a lot of trust. But when he did, the waves got bigger and the storm more horrible. It made Peter take his eyes off of Jesus and begin to sink. Some times I feel our situations begin to flare just when we think we have stepped out in faith. They take our eyes and focus from where they will find rest and peace.

So the real daily challenge is to get our focus, our efforts, our daily tasks, our words, our deeds, our finances, all of our daily happenings to be fixed on the One who can take all of our messes, our storms, our disappointments, and our fears and make them into something beautiful.

RIP those who we love who have gone on before us. Our hearts are with you and your families.

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